Learning Along The Way

When Life is Full

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When life is full of many good opportunities it’s really easy to have discipline slip off the plate altogether.

Exercise. Blogging. Reading. Laundry. Even having regular food in the house!

Are you helped by routines? I didn’t realize how much I need them until living the past 10 + days without them.  The simple act of getting ready in the morning is different because my stuff is in a cosmetic bag instead of it’s usual place.

I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining. I simply can’t keep moving forward consistently without routines.

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(our visit to Florida: the land of flat)

I’m looking forward to Monday. Yep, I just said that. I am looking forward to getting back to regular life.

Exercise. Juicing. Reading. Writing. And yes, even grocery shopping.

I’d love to know how you handle life when it’s mostly out of the ordinary.

I could use all the help!

Sabbath Listening

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“In the relentless busyness of modern life, we have lost the rhythm between work and rest.”  Wayne Muller

One of the greatest benefits of this empty nest season of life is open calendar space. I have learned to love whitespace on the calendar.  Ironically the Hubster has asked for this open calendar space since we were married 24 years ago.  I am unfortunately a very stiff-necked rebellious woman who wants her own way most of the time.  This may or may not be the reason I memorized this verse 15 years ago.

“Who is wise? Let them realize these things.

    Who is discerning? Let them understand.

The ways of the Lord are right;

    the righteous walk in them,

    but the rebellious stumble in them.”  Hosea 14:9

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See this lifeless tree in the middle of the photo? This is a symbol to me of drying up by following my own way of doing things.

It hasn’t been easy for me to let go of my own ways. Sometimes it’s still hard. But when I slow myself down and listen to those words again,  my rebellious heart is reminded that the ways of the Lord are right.  His ways are higher than my ways.

In quietness and trust is your strength…

Sabbath listening is a discipline. The practice of listening makes me stop doing things like laundry and web surfing to sit with God’s Word open, with my heart open, and listen to what the Spirit impresses on my heart & mind as I read and ponder.

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It has become my favorite day of the week.

What is Enough?

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The sun is just up over the horizon, the house is quiet, the only noise the hum of the refrigerator. Outside is a different thing.

Birds of countless varieties are moving and chattering; calling out their finds of bugs, worms, seeds.

Beads of dew on blades of grass catching new light as if a thousand diamonds grace the ground.

All is quiet for a moment; a hush of new day awareness.

A mockingbird begins its litany of imitations with the loudest voice in the yard and the chorus begins anew.

A hummingbird swoops into view, hovers near the lemon tree where the fragrance of the tree draws in search of a blossom to dip into to.

This moment is enough.

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What does that even mean?

In a culture that looks for the next best thing, seeks more than what is and uses “never” to pair with enough, it’s hard to imagine that something that simple and quiet can be called enough.

And yet, it’s moments like this our soul finds satisfaction.

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How can we capture moments? How do we learn to see them in the first place?

Practice. It’s possible to learn to see, learn to hear. Jesus said let them who have eyes to see, see. Let them who have ears to hear, hear.  That seems to me to be an invitation to ask for that to be true for me. For each of us.

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Some call it mindfulness. Some use the phrase living with intention.

I call it Living in Tandem.

Living in Tandem with the One who offers the gift of each moment. It’s learning to live aware. Aware of subtlety. Aware of the expanse hidden in a seed.

Aware of His abiding Presence.

One of the greatest tools I have come across for developing this awareness of God’s Presence is the little book Practicing the Presence of God by Brother Lawrence.

Brother Lawrence was a Carmelite monk in 17th century Paris. Before he joined the monastery he served in the army because he was so poor he knew he would be fed and clothed in turn for his serving. While in the army in the dead of winter, he saw a tree which was of course without leaves or fruit. He realized the tree as a symbol of hope for new life. It was at that moment “first flashed in upon my soul the fact of God”. This point of conversion led him to eventually join the Carmelite monastery in Paris.

Brother Lawrence was a simple man without advanced learning yet his simple awareness of God’s abiding Presence was noticed by all who encountered him.  We have Abbe de Beaufort to thank for having conversations with Brother Lawrence and writing them down for us to be able to glean for our own spiritual growth.  If you have not yet read this thin book I highly recommend you do.

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Developing awareness of God is a life long practice. And yet God wants to be found by us, to have our hearts turned toward Him, to learn to trust Him.

What is enough? You are. As you are. Because if you love Christ and are on the journey with Him, He lives in you. See? You actually are MORE than enough.

When a Soul Needs Quiet

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All morning long I’ve been juggling calendar and email; sending and receiving texts; straightening up around the house; taking care of business. It’s only 11:00 am and I feel spent. Part of me feels as if nothing has gotten done. My infamous to-do list has boxes checked so if that’s my measuring stick I know I am ok.

But something is still not settled.

My soul needs quiet.

It has been a long, slow journey to awareness of that fact. Detoxing from years of too full calendar space and changing habits has not come easily to me.

I have lived a life of performance to earn favor. A life bound up by believing lies that perpetuated the performance even after following Christ.

But God…

Whispers quietly to come be still and know.

But God…

Invites me to Come to Him when I am weary and burdened and He will give me rest.

But God…

Speaks words of comfort as He promises to never leave me or forget me.

Those are literally my two favorite words in the Bible. I have them circled in my Bible…

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When my life feels overwhelming and tasks feel impossible to accomplish

When I feel my internal world swirling

When I slip into listening to the lies I have heard so many times

I know my soul needs quiet.

How can quiet happen when it seems there is so much noise?!

It’s a discipline. A thing to try. A habit to be formed.

I have learned to say those two amazing words But God…

And remember God has a different idea for me.

He is bigger than any issue we face. He knows. He cares. He longs to have us aware of His abiding Presence; to come to Him in a breath to slow down and be quiet.

Our souls need to be filled up before we are poured out in our days. And refilled in the middle of the day! And throughout the day!!!

Living in Tandem is a journey. A soul journey of learning to live aware.  A journey implies a beginning and an end. I believe the end will be when He calls each of us to our promised eternal home with Him.

The beginning? Well that depends on you.

What’s your response to His invitation to get on the bike with Him?

But God…

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A Good Road to Ride

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Since I have been thinking a lot about what the idea Living in Tandem looks like for this series, it seems I see correlations all over the place!  Some are more obvious than others, but this correlation might be a stretch for you: your calendar has an impact on Living in Tandem.

As a coach I like to know more about people than what they do for a living. It’s helpful to know how someone spends their time; if they hear themselves frequently saying “can’t, I’m busy”, what’s filling their calendar? A person’s calendar says a lot about their priorities.

The predominant American culture is driven. Calendars are full; over full to the point of producing stress. Parents are recruiting help to shuttle littles to their own over-filled activity list since we still haven’t figured teleportation out yet. (Star Trek, anyone?) This calendar thing is not just a Gen-X or Millenial issue.  It didn’t occur because of the tech revolution. The problem with our over-full lives began post- WWII in the “rebuilding” of the American dream. Baby Boomers were the first generation to experience what it means to be a ‘latch key kid’. And because it’s not a recent development, the problem is entrenched in society.  So what are we supposed to do?

We have to say No more.

I’ve fought this fight on several fronts so I know how hard it is to say No and mean it. Here are the reasons our calendars tend to fill to the brin:

1) We see others ‘doing a lot’ so we think it’s expected of us too.

2) We are afraid of missing out on something for ourselves or our children’s lives (search #FOMO) It’s a thing.

3) We are afraid of having to face our inner selves if we have too much time on our hands.

4) We’ve got a lot riding on us (other’s expectations) so we perform

I lived under the tyranny of these 4 calendar dictators for more than half my life. When the Hubster and I first married he began asking for something I didn’t know how to provide: whitespace on the calendar.  I had no idea how to let go of the things that filled our weekends and evenings.  A lot of anxiety welled up in me imagining how I would be letting people down or not doing my share or… And what in the world would we do with an empty calendar one Saturday a month?!!

In 1995, a book was published that we later were introduced to. Margin: Restoring Emotional, Physical, Financial, and Time Reserves to Overloaded Lives. Now there’s a title! Reading the book was one step. Putting action to what we read took more effort.  I began to recognize how the struggles with an over-filled calendar were negatively impacting our marriage and sons. Lack of margin was wearing us all down and that wasn’t going to end well.

I wrestled with my issues found in the 4 reasons above.  I’ve had many to wrestle!  But in my wrestling I wanted to know God’s thoughts on these issues.  I found comfort in this passage:

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When I first felt Micah 6:8 resonate in my soul we were singing it in church.  The simplicity and love I found there was so gentle.  There wasn’t a load dumped on my shoulders.  I began to realize ever so slowly that God’s desires for me were for my good not for my performance and over commitment.

Learning to say No was hard but it was good.  Just like change.  I had to let go of over commitment to say yes to my husband’s need for more whitespace.  Living in Tandem is like that. It’s a Good Road to Ride. Giving and receiving.

You might be facing a season of over commitment.  Or you may find your life is characterized by over commitment as mine was.  You CAN make a little change to take that first step that can lead to another and another until the over committed calendar is tamed.  It takes time, but you can do it!

What’s Around the Corner?

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Don’t we often want to know what’s around the corner in life?  I think that’s why we make plans. We have something to look forward!

I’ve been planning blog posts instead of writing them. I’ve done lots of composing in my head but not so much here on the blog. Why? Well in part, I’ve allowed myself to focus too much on circumstances instead of the One who holds it altogether.

In Proverbs we read: the heart of man plans his way but the Lord establishes his steps.

I’m excited to share how the Lord has been establishing my steps. I’m going to share a blog series here for the 31 days of October. 12048699_10205045476232296_665763118_n

 

I’ll be joining over 1000 other writers who’ll be sharing their passions on their blogs.  So many categories, so much fun, so much learning and so much encouragement!

There will be live links to the Write 31 Days curator page where all the bloggers will share their individual link buttons.  I really hope you will consider visiting some bloggers you haven’t come across before.  There are amazing writers with some really interesting series topics that I think many of you will enjoy.

It all begins in only 11 days!!!

 

Learning to Celebrate the Daily

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I am easily distracted these days.  Interestingly, the distractions come from within; the thoughts of what needs to be accomplished mix with the memories of what was and is no longer. These distractions have hindered me from actions that I love, like writing. But I’m happy to say I’ve been coming back to center and learning to celebrate the everyday moments of life thanks to a new book.

I recently read the fantastic new book Simply Tuesday by Emily P Freeman.  It’s available today! The tagline for this book really called to me: Small-Moment Living in a Fast Moving World. I had been living the SLO life for 30 years until two years ago. Now living in the fast-paced, change-oriented, bigger, faster, better society of the Silicon Valley is like “drinking from a fire hose” as our pastor puts it.  Simply Tuesday is a call to notice, to appreciate the ordinary moments of the day and that is opposite living from this world’s expectations. What a beautiful thing because our souls are not meant for speed. A soul is meant for depth, for slow, for connection.

Emily shares her story of learning to embrace ‘small’. She puts into words what my own soul has yearned for; being okay with “right where I am” instead of pushing for more, for notice, for good, better, best. In the chapter “Effort & Outcomes” Emily’s words stopped my striving, never-good- enough heart & mind right in their Energizer Bunny tracks.  “I don’t see Jesus calling me to excellence. I do see Him calling me to Himself. And sometimes, on the kingdom of earth, moving close to Jesus looks like failure and embarrassment.”

I have pushed and resisted, fought and argued and demanded that my life be “good, better, best, never let it rest until your good is better and your better best.”  Being transplanted from the comfort and familiarity of my former life was painful to say the least.  I have not been able to gain the traction I’ve thought I’ve needed to be “successful” in this new arena. The revolutionary thought that simply being aware and available to the movement of Christ in my day truly stopped my whirling internal dialogue. It was as if someone picked up the arm of the record player and turned the swirling machine off.

Simply Tuesday is seeping down into my soul.  This book, Emily’s voice, is counter-cultural in this area where I live. But Emily lives and writes in Greensboro, NC and her words come from a place of knowing how extended beyond peace we often live. Simply Tuesday is inviting me to sit on a bench and notice where Jesus is moving in my day.  It’s inviting me to learn to celebrate the daily; the everyday moments that make up my everyday, ordinary life. Learning to celebrate that this life is a gift from God moment by moment.

Learning to be present to His abiding Presence.  Learning to be thankful for little things like a bird on a bird feeder or the smell of freshly brewed coffee is reminding me of the true beauty that makes up every day.  Learning that time is non-renewable and therefore sacred.

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This bench is at the park near our latest place of residence.  (notice I didn’t call it home? I’m not there yet.) I often see people seated here looking out at the children, the athletes, the trees. This morning I thought of the gift Simply Tuesday is to me and prayed that it would be so for many, many more. I really want to encourage you to get your own copy and gather with others who are seeking connection like I am.  They’re all around us; Tuesday people as Emily calls us.

Listen in to Emily chat briefly about her book here.  Then go to Amazon and pick up your own copy (and maybe a few for your Tuesday people?).  I’d love to know what you’re learning to celebrate!

How Pinballs, Tandem Bicycles and Lent Hold Hands

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I’ve been reflecting on one verse of scripture today. Well truth be told I’ve been thinking about this for almost 2 years. It’s been bouncing around in my head, bumping up against my to do list of laundry, dishes, email, responsibilities and deadlines; you know the list.

 

Every time it bumps into something in my head it feels like a light goes on. One thing has stood out over and over: God is the initiator. He started this whole change process. Let me back up and explain.

The verse I’ve been reflecting on is Romans 12:1

I urge you therefore brethren by the mercies of God to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice acceptable to God which is your spiritual service of worship.

For a long time (like 20 years long time) I’ve looked at this verse as part of what I’m supposed to do as a Christian. The focus has been on me. But that perspective is changing.

By the mercies of God…

Five little words that have been bouncing around in my head like the silver ball in a pinball machine (do you know what a pinball machine is?)

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lighting up the objects it bumps into before it drops through the hole at the bottom; these 5 words all rolled together as one phrase.

By the mercies of God.

Any thing I do regarding the rest of this verse happens by the mercies of God. So then I want to know: What are the mercies of God?

Earlier in Romans we’re told that while we were still sinners, still enemies of God, He sent His only Son Jesus to pay the required sin sacrifice to buy us back from the enemy of our souls. (Rom. 5:8)

Telling you this much information without context is like walking into the family room in the middle of a movie that everyone else is focused on and you don’t know what’s going on. The point?

God is the Initiator.

He is the Creator, Sustainer, Equipper, Comforter, Provider, and the list goes on.

So by the mercies of God I am able to present my body, my whole self, as a living and holy sacrifice which is acceptable to God … do you see it? By God and to God. God is the Initiator.

 But what are His mercies?

So many places in the Bible speak of the mercy or mercies of God. And like so many words that get said over and over I had to stop and remind myself exactly what the word mercy means.

 Mercy–compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one’s power to punish or harm.

God, Who created, ex nihilo (out of nothing) has within His power the right to punish or harm us for falling short of His perfect Law. But from the very beginning of humanity’s rebellion, God initiated a Way back to Him. He promised to send a Savior for humanity. (Gen. 3)

God is the Initiator.

By His mercies we are objects of Love not objects of wrath. By His mercies we can be forgiven for our fallen nature and every act or thought of rebellion against His Way. (Eph. 2:3; Col.1:21)

By His mercies we are invited close, called sons & daughters, co-inheritors with His Son. (Eph 2:13; Heb. 9:15; 1 Pet. 1:4)

By His mercies we are transformed, changed into the likeness, into the family resemblance of Christ. (Eph. 4:24)

Bottom line here: it is God Who is at work in us and through us. He is the Initiator.

Our responsibility is to live life in tandem with Him. A tandem bicycle is not designed side by side but one in front of the other. A captain and a stoker.

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He’s the One in front, steering, braking, shifting, guiding.  He invites us to join Him.

All we have to do is stay on the bike, on the saddle and peddle in sync with His power, His direction, His will.

As we begin this season of Lent I encourage you to ponder, to reflect, to listen, to let go. Let a portion of God’s Word bounce around in your head like your own pinball machine.  Think about what it would take to be on a tandem bike with God the Initiator.  Let these images and ideas hold hands during this season.

We have been given the gift of responding to His love, to His plan, to His sacrifice for us.

This adventure is amazing!

 

 

 

 

Musings on Monday

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Does the thought of Monday make your breathing shallow and your heart rate increase?

Another week packed with appointments, an over filled schedule that requires teleportation to fit it all in?

What if you tried something new, something that just might slow your heart rate and allow you to breathe in deeply?

Want to try?

Take a moment and gaze at this picture.

Hills of Ben Lomond

Now slowly read these words:

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
    where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

Imagine you’re walking on this shore…

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The Lord watches over you—
    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;

the Lord will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

Slow down. Spend time musing over these words. Allow them to seep into your soul.

Make time for musing.

Mondays are good. So is every day. A coffee break at work or at lunch or during your child’s nap. You pick.

Allow yourself a few moments to slow down…

Reflect on what you’re thankful for, what you’re looking forward to, what in this present moment is relaxing you.

I’d love to hear how your musing goes.

 

 

21 Days of Rest: Finding #SpiritualWhitespace Day 1

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The first time I saw this beautiful invitation I cried.  Tears of disbelief actually.

My head knows the Truth that is written. My  heart sees glimpses of the Truth that can be lived. But to simply rest in that Truth? Without being busy justifying my existence?

This is a new way of being.  I am trying to learn.  And it’s not easy undoing a lifetime of perfectionism.  I need help. Maybe you do too.

This is the first of June.  Every day for the first 21 days, Bonnie of Faith Barista, will be serving a prompt to for us to ponder. An invitation to be with Jesus as He invites us everyday:

“Come to Me all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble of heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Whether you blog, journal or simply write your thoughts on slips of paper the prompt will be an invitation to slow down, talk with Jesus and rest in Him.

This is not an invitation to figure out what Bible study to do next, or on what committee to serve, or whatever your doing looks like.  This is an invitation from Jesus to be.with.Him.

We can find the whitespaces inside us to rest together with Jesus. (from the introduction Finding Spiritual Whitespace; Awakening Your Soul to Rest)

I’ll be blogging here as well as journaling in this beautiful book created by my friend Holly Beals.

photo(75)Holly creates beautiful images and makes them accessible to us through cards, journals (like this beauty) through her etsy site. She also is committed to ending human trafficking so she donates a portion of every sale to this cause.

And the other book in the picture? Why that’s Bonnie’s new book that is available this week!!!! You’ll be hearing more from me about the beauty of finding spiritual whitespace in the days to come. I’ve had the privilege of spending time here

photo(76)reading, pondering and journaling my experiences in finding spiritual whitespace.

I can honestly say this is a book that epitomizes Proverbs 25:11.

Jesus will meet you in the pages of Finding Spiritual Whitespace as Bonnie tells her own journey and invites us to pull up a chair and share.

It’s almost summer. Don’t you feel a need for a different routine? 21 days of rest to take you to the official first day of summer. Now that sounds amazing to me!

Want to join?

It’s easy! Click on this image and you’ll go to her site where you can learn more.  I hope you’ll share here too!

 

21 Days of Rest: Finding Spiritual Whitespace

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